read the email :) haha. i have no idea why some people express themselves so much better in emails or letters but when they are standing face to face... everything just flips UP-SIDE-DOWN. HAIXHIAXHAIX! haha. oh well, i bet God will pull us through.. and of course making us stronger than we were. thinking about the awkward situations that we've been through made me think. was it just me that always cared about how other people thought about us? about the EYES that stare and the attention drawn towards us when we take a step towards each other. maybe its just me or maybe its true. its really difficult you know, i mean like no matter how much i can share with my closest friends, it always boils down to me me me. i have to make a decision, and no one can help me except for God. i really wish that i could get past this virtual barrier that has been pulling me back. i want to TALK really i want to but everytime i see you, my first instinct is to pull back and turn away. don't ask me i have no idea why i do that, probably shy i guess but oh well. whatever im a girl and that explains everything.

everybody in their entire life hides behind this little door. for some people, they are able to open it fully once someone knocks on it. but for others, they just keep it shut forever. and there are also those, that opens it a little bit but it just remains there cause they do not know if they want to trust that person that knocks on it. so which type are you? think about it.

smile. thats what everyone you see do. smile. but what really lies behind that smile. well, i think that alot lies behind that one smile. everyone has their own problems but the difference is that everyone always carries a smile everywhere. to church to school to wherever place where they meet people. but why? its sad sometimes when you see people smiling all the time but at the same time you know the struggles that they are dealing with, the pain they are going through. however, some people do know that their one smile could actually encourage another person. and thats why its contagious. and probably its good to smile. :)

wow. i don't even know what i am typing about. but haha. i just felt like typing in a sentimental way today. hope its not too scary. :) i feel weird now haha. oh wait i am weird like some people said! WHATEVER.

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read the email :) haha. i have no idea why some people express themselves so much better in emails or letters but when they are standing face to face... everything just flips UP-SIDE-DOWN. HAIXHIAXHAIX! haha. oh well, i bet God will pull us through.. and of course making us stronger than we were. thinking about the awkward situations that we've been through made me think. was it just me that always cared about how other people thought about us? about the EYES that stare and the attention drawn towards us when we take a step towards each other. maybe its just me or maybe its true. its really difficult you know, i mean like no matter how much i can share with my closest friends, it always boils down to me me me. i have to make a decision, and no one can help me except for God. i really wish that i could get past this virtual barrier that has been pulling me back. i want to TALK really i want to but everytime i see you, my first instinct is to pull back and turn away. don't ask me i have no idea why i do that, probably shy i guess but oh well. whatever im a girl and that explains everything.

everybody in their entire life hides behind this little door. for some people, they are able to open it fully once someone knocks on it. but for others, they just keep it shut forever. and there are also those, that opens it a little bit but it just remains there cause they do not know if they want to trust that person that knocks on it. so which type are you? think about it.

smile. thats what everyone you see do. smile. but what really lies behind that smile. well, i think that alot lies behind that one smile. everyone has their own problems but the difference is that everyone always carries a smile everywhere. to church to school to wherever place where they meet people. but why? its sad sometimes when you see people smiling all the time but at the same time you know the struggles that they are dealing with, the pain they are going through. however, some people do know that their one smile could actually encourage another person. and thats why its contagious. and probably its good to smile. :)

wow. i don't even know what i am typing about. but haha. i just felt like typing in a sentimental way today. hope its not too scary. :) i feel weird now haha. oh wait i am weird like some people said! WHATEVER.

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