disappointed in myself for not plucking up the courage to just stand up and dance. its fear i know. but its always there. and the event will just replay in my mind over and over again and im just so afraid that it will happen again. i know i shouldnt feel this way and i dont blame God for it but i guess its just fear in my heart that i have to overcome. seeing all those people dancing so freely today, smiling so widely when they dance just makes me feel happy for them :) oh well. i know i will be up there one day. ill just take a longer time thats all.
im not sad, ill just have to just persevere but i know God will be with me. :)